Sometimes,
I feel as if my feelings for you are dying, fading. I don’t know why, I don’t like thinking like this but it just comes so often since I’m scared that what I’m feeling for you is just a simple infatuation. But then, you do something, just something that makes me remember why I’m in this relationship with you, why I fell for you in the first place, why I wouldn’t let you go even if you let go of me. After all this time, I still love you. Like the very first day I fell for you.
Nothing feels the same anymore,
Even at home, nothing feels the same. Because you’re gone.
Even to this day, I can’t believe you’re gone,
It’s probably my mistake, my mistake that I didn’t talk to you in such a long time, when I knew, I should have. Now, I’m sitting here, wondering what I should do with my life, without you in it. In ways, I am really happy, but sometimes when I let my mind wander off, I just can’t seem to believe the fact that you’re gone. You aren’t there to talk to anymore. There’s no more random talks that even if it’s a 10 minute conversation, it still made my day. I miss the way you used to randomly message me for no reason.
I guess what I’m really trying to say is, I miss you a lot alright? If I could give us a second chance, even if we only can be friends, I’ll take that chance. Sometimes, I wish I could apologize for everything, all the lies I told, all the things I kept from you, everything. But I feel as if I’m too late.
